Just Friends

So I"m sitting here in my bathtub (wishing I was a lefty) thinking about the great day I had. I had my friends Jake and Jess over to my grandmothers house to help her with odds and ends such as painting the window sill and starting to clean out the basement outside. I'm really glad both of them came today. I haven't laughed so hard, and so long, in a while (thank you guys!).

But today helped me realize how great friends can be. Whether they're girls or guys. Whether they're in a relationship with you or someone else, or none at all. Whether they're having a hard time with things or are really happy with everything in their lives. Whether we're doing slave labor or just going to the movies together.

Something I find funny and completely off topic: The past three songs [Me Against The World - Simple Plan, I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance, and Misery Business - Paramore] are the ultimate opposite of me feelings right now and it's making me smile for that reason. I'm just in a really nice mood right now I guess.

So I guess I realized how great friends are today. And how much I actually missed hanging out with them or seeing them everyday, like in school. Friends really are a great thing to have, to fall back on, or to just simply know they're there.

So I've also been thinking about next year and how different things are going to be. Jess and I were looking through the yearbook today, and talking about it in the pool; Most of the people we normally hang out with, a lot of our friends, the people we know are there to fall back on, aren't going to be there next year. They're gone off to college, moving on with their lives, never to be out upper-classmen in high school again. This is it, we're the oldest now, we're the examples, we're the seniors, the graduating class of 2009. When did that happen?? It feels like just last month when I was in 9th grade, not knowing anyone, being the new girl in this gigantic school, full of people who already know each other from the previous years. Not knowing if they'll be willing to accept me as a friend after having their own since kindergarten almost. But I managed (obviously) and look at me now. I don't want to leave this place, those memories and friends, all behind. I really don't want to leave high school. I actually look forward to going to school after long weekends (or, in this case, the summer) and see all those familiar faces again. I look forward to complaining about being in school with them. I look forward to being late to class with them. I look forward to hurrying out of one class just to be at my locker to watch someone walk by. I look forward to seeing who's wearing what and who's dating who.
I know I have over a year until I graduate, but it's all starting to hit me now. What will I be doing in a year? Will I be blogging? Will I supposed to be getting ready to pick my friends up to go to Nana's house to help her with things around her house? Will I already know what I'm going to do with my life? Will I have a boyfriend? Will I still be bast friends with my best friend? Will I still talk to the people I talk to now? Will I still be in touch with my older friends? Will I, will I, will I?

Of course no one can answer these questions. But I wonder if this blog will still be around for me to read in a year. I do know, though, that my blog from over a year ago was found, and I started reading it. It was so interesting to go back and read and remember my feelings and thoughts I had, by simply just coming home from school and writing about my day. Or having something significant happen to me (good or bad) and going back in my mind and feeling how I felt then, as if it was just yesterday. I want to make the most of my life and I want to spend it, knowing I have my friends right there with me. I want them to be a major part of my life. I love all of them, all my friends, and I don't want anything to change that would make them go away.

With that, I have to go pick two of them up in a half hour and I have tons of things I need to do before hand. Oh boy.

[EDIT]

I just read this quote that I had in my profile, and I decided that it fits perfectly with this blog (almost):

"So, don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble, and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe, you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you have ever imagined. Who knows where life will take you? The road is long, and in the end, the journey is the destination." - One Tree Hill