Let Me Get It Out Of My System, Please.

What causes people to say horrible things about other people? Especially if they have no real reason to? And another thing that irks me is that none of your "friends" say anything to those people talking about you. It makes me so angry to know that someone who I used to be friends with, stopped being friends with, then became "civil" with, spent her graduation evening talking about me. I haven't said more than two words to her at a time in over a year now. And it makes me livid to know that she's still holding a grudge against me for literally, no reason whatsoever. I mean, yes, she may have some reason in her head, because otherwise, it'd be completely insane to hate me for no reason at all.

If she still hates me for the same reason all of my ex-boyfriends friends used to (and probably still do) "hate" me for (for just breaking up with him) then that's a very idiotic thing to hate someone for, especially since it happened, oh, a year ago. And if she only hates me, just because she doesn't like me, then good for her, I don't really care. The only thing I care about is the stupid shit she's saying. And I'm not totally sure if she was the only person saying things about me, but still, she was at least one of them.

I mean, she just graduated, come on. She should be a hell of a lot more mature than to sit there, at a graduation party, and gossip. She shouldn't even be thinking about me, not only because it's her graduation evening, but because I haven't even made contact with her in any way, shape, or form. And another thing, I was just planning on being civil with her, I don't like her, I don't want to be her friend, but I don't want to be in this, constant, typical high school girl battle.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY SHE'S HOLDING A GRUDGE. It's so confusing to me. I mean, she really has nothing at all to hate me for. Okay, yea, we used to be really good friends and now we aren't. So!?! Am I the only person who sees something wrong here? Am I the only one who thinks that the right thing to do is to drop it, don't talk about the other person, don't think about the other person, don't look at the other person, don't even talk to the other person??? Am I the only one who doesn't want an argument or a constant war over something that happened over a year ago?

She needs to get over it. She either needs to stop thinking about this whole "I hate Alex, she's a bitch, blah blah blah." or she needs to forget about me completely. Because I really don't want to be bothered by people telling me how much she hates me or how much she talks about me. Because it burns my chest with a deep anger to know that she thinks she so superior to have the nerve to talk about me.

I even forgot about it for a little while after I found out. And my best friend found out and got even angrier than I was. This shows you how immature and low she is, and how stupid and idiotic her actions are. I hope she grows up one of these days. Because she will get no where in life if she continues to act this way as she gets out there on her own in the world. I'm sorry, but this is so stupid, and I hope, no, I know I will never be as shallow of a person as she has been in the past year and a half.