Pull Yourself Together, Dammit!

My friend gave me this song to listen to, after a long, boring, miserable (on my part) night into the morning. It's now 3:52am and I'm sitting here, upset.

I'm not exactly sure what's wrong, so maybe I'll pull it out of this blog.

So the song my friend sent to me was Don't Worry, Be Happy by Bobby McFerrin. As I'm sitting here, just watching the animated video of one stick figure trying to make the other happy, I burst into tears. I didn't want to tell my friend because I've already been so much of a "Debby Downer" tonight, and I know he reads my blog so I know he'll find out soon.

I don't understand why I'm so sad. I know I'm bored, but I've been a lot more bored before, for an extended amount of time, and I haven't cried about it.

A few things have been going on that could possibly just be all piling on top of each other, and I've been bottling up my emotions about them. Until now, when my body just wants to let it out, so I can go back to my normal, happy self. I mean, I saw one of those things happening for a while, and then other "thing" I should be anything but sad about. I mean, things could actually be going great in the future for that matter (about that "thing). (None of that will make sense unless you're a few select people who, sorry.)

And I don't think I've been too terribly bored. I mean, I bought three new shirts for Pete's sake. And I've been hanging out with my family, and no one has been angry or upset, besides Nana who's sick. Everything around me has been positive, and yet, I'm sitting here, with tears in my eyes, blogging about it.

Maybe a nights rest will help me come to a conclusion? I don't know. I guess I feel a little bit better. And I know one thing is for sure, I'm not going to listen to that song until I know I'm completely, 100% "happy" again. Then I'll see how I react a second time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3S-T0c6dYLc